Such a blessed weekend!

        Twenty-one years ago my brothers and I were laying on mats at a day care, my mom got out of work at 10pm getting to us by bus by 10:30pm, we would then rush to the bus stop across the street to make it for the last bus of the night. That night we had all fallen asleep so my mom had to get there and wake us up, we missed the bus. I remember it was cold and the cold wind crashed against my face, my two year old brother Valentin cried because he had to walk while my mom carried Leonard because he was only one. I tried carrying Valentin off and on but even I was to the point of almost crying, I would just tell Valentin sorry, put him down and continue pulling him by the hand while he continued to cry. Two people pulled over asking to give us a ride and my mom turned them away, I cried because I knew we had to decline, but it would have felt so good to just sit. I just watched my little brothers and wished we had a car. I remember getting home and looking at the digital clock on the TV stand, it read 1:00am.
       This weekend, my boss and friend blessed me with a car. As I drove home in my brand new car  I couldn't fight back the tears remembering what life was at one point in time for me. Never in a million years did I imagine that someone would bless me by giving me a car. I feel so humbled, and as that memory popped in my head, I felt that it was God telling me he hadn't forgotten either.
       Xander named the car Jackson Storm, he's a huge cars fan. As he pretended to drive the car, again I was humbled, my son hadn't gone through any of the things my little brothers had by his age. Yesterday my little guy turned three years old, another blessing on it's own. My son is a year older and tomorrow is promised to no one so for that I am so thankful. For the car I am so thankful, I will never be able to fully express my gratitude for it. I am thankful for this wonderful life in general, for the people who surround me, the blessings I am able to give, the ones I receive and the air that I breathe.

 

It has been a long time.

FOUR YEARS! I haven't posted anything in four years. I have had so much to share but no time, because of life, just life.
WELL, actually! I had a little one. My biggest dream became true. My son will be 3 in a few days and time has gone by too fast. Oh the joy of having a little boy! Cars everywhere! I have learned so much from him and have tried my best to teach him, too. It's hard shaping a little one to be the best they can be, with fear that you may be pushing too hard or maybe not hard enough, when "no"
should be told, when its been told too many times. I try to be the best parent I can be, but that's when God steps in, at the end of the day when I am scared that maybe I wasn't perfect I am reminded I don't have to be. As parents we stress over teaching them to be kind, to obey, to be able to use their words, potty training (my current challenge), to be strong, voice their opinion, But not talk back.  I want my son to be able to say "no, I don't want to do that" so that he is confident of himself and doesn't fall for peer pressure, but when he is told to clean up his toys and that comes out of his mouth 😅......... This parenting thing is tough. I have to be reminded that he belongs to God and that I am a tool God is using to shape this little guy into the man he is meant to be. I will enjoy every hug, kiss and beautiful memory on the way. My boy is strong willed (stubborn), strong (breaks things), brave (climbs everything), voices his opinion (says "No!' a lot), but most importantly my gift from God (Natahniel). Alexander Nathaniel to be exact. It feels great to be back, cant wait to share so many things with you.
                                                                                             

                                                             











  ⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
                                                   1 Corinthians 13:4-7